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(no subject) [Sep. 9th, 2007|01:11 pm]
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(no subject) [Sep. 7th, 2007|11:13 am]
So today is Max and I's one year and eleven months.
So exactly one month from today, we will be celebrating our two years.
Max is turning twenty in twenty days from today. He will be twenty and I will be sixteen.
Then october 30th I turn seventeen. Bleh. I don't know what to get Max for his birthday, I was thinking since I have no money I could just make him something...but I don't even have the money to BUY something to MAKE him. Like I would need a canvas or fabric. His family will probably have a birhtday party for him and I will be the only one without a presant. "Oh yea, what a 'loving' girlfriend". Maybe Wendy will take me to get him a presant? Hm.
I also have the best costume planned out. I'm not going to say what it is, you will just have to wait till Halloween huh?? I feel a little old to be dressing up anymore, so this might be my last year....I HAVE TO MAKE IT AWESOME. Max agreed to my costuming idea, and he can't change his mind.
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(no subject) [Sep. 4th, 2007|10:07 pm]
My VeeVee.


Alice E. Staples,

EEEEE is for a name she hates and loathes because she doesn't like people knowin' about her STAPLE MUNCHING HABBITS> See the gappus? That cute little gap? Thats the work of thumb suckin' till age eleven. Whats that sound I hear late at night, someone sucking and kicking? Alice Alice.
Alice kisses my brother, yea she liked my brother. "He did me wrong, he was so mean" I hate him too Alice. I couldn't call you my sister because you liked my brother, how would I explain THAT? One night we looked at incest porn, Alice told me to look at something else.
She skipped school when she was in sixth grade and came over to my house.
We watched so much porn.

Alice broke her arm when I was angry at her. I wrote her a card and she forgave me for not feeling bad. She moved to North Port, and my heart split a little.
She came back all the time to see me, not my brother. "You can be my boyfriend" she starts to call me vincent and we pretend to be dating. But I am a girl without a dick.
She tells me about her first blow-job, I say "Good Job" and she says "NO, it was terrible!" her first blow job was with a sweaty boy, this I know. I said "finger fucked" once over the phone, she didn't stop laughing for hours.

You know you know, Alice sits in her underwear, shes on my bed. I see her drawing two fat little characters, in underwear, my underwear. "I stopped wearing under wear Viv" she tells me. I tell her to be careful, she tells me she got antother UTI. Still no underwear, just mine on my bed that one morning.

"I miss you" she is older now, and I miss her. I think I'm pregnant, I call her and she tells me to wear underwear, we laugh and we are out of eachothers minds for a year.

She was fourteen, and she turned fiffteen, she got older and quicker and busty.
She met a boy named MAXIMILLIAN. She writes me a letter and writes his names in bubble letters. "I think I love him" she writes me "He will be my first" She scribbles "MaxIMILLIAN" she loves she loves. I am sad, because I have no Alice, no love, no fun. I drop out and become a sudden mistake of earth, Alice is growing.

She's sixteen now, and I contact her. "Remember This?" Alice says to me. Yea, Yea.
She is angry and unhappy at people, she tells me. I say "Alice, remember when we took down that kid that stole our candy at Halloween?" she says yes, and everything is alright alright. She still loves her MAXIMILLIAN, and she talks about him.
She cries a lot now, I cry a lot now. We cry on the phone together, she is my telephonic shoulder, and I miss her all the days."
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(no subject) [Sep. 3rd, 2007|01:12 am]
You were acting so strange tonight.
I like you when your in this mood.

You talked about anything. You talked about things that you would never usually talk about around other people. I feel like I learned something about you, something strange and something exciting. You said things to me that made ME blush. You weren't modest like you usually are. You were aggressive and intriguing.
When we were leaving, you came out and you hugged me. You wrapped your arms around me and looked at me and you kissed me, like you were in control and you wanted a kiss and a hug and a moment of complete childish sexual bliss. I felt so nervous around you, like I did when we first met, when I knew I wanted you but I was to shy. I wanted nothing but you but I was to afraid to ask.
I feel in love all over again with you tonight,
all I want you to do now is come to bed.
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(no subject) [Aug. 31st, 2007|08:31 am]
august- nothingness. working and wasting my life.

september- Max's birthday; twenty years old.

october- My birthday; seventeen years old. thats when they want me, and only then.

november- no idea, nothing. hopefully another job by then.

december- Las vegas 9-13th. not so much a vacation but an experience.
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If you care about anything, [Aug. 29th, 2007|06:30 pm]
Read on.

An Incomplete Manifesto for Growth

Written in 1998, the Incomplete Manifesto is an articulation of statements that exemplify Bruce Mau's beliefs, motivations and strategies. It also articulates how the BMD studio works.

1. Allow events to change you. You have to be willing to grow. Growth is different from something that happens to you. You produce it. You live it. The prerequisites for growth: the openness to experience events and the willingness to be changed by them.

2. Forget about good. Good is a known quantity. Good is what we all agree on. Growth is not necessarily good. Growth is an exploration of unlit recesses that may or may not yield to our research. As long as you stick to good you'll never have real growth.

3. Process is more important than outcome. When the outcome drives the process we will only ever go to where we've already been. If process drives outcome we may not know where we’re going, but we will know we want to be there.

4. Love your experiments (as you would an ugly child). Joy is the engine of growth. Exploit the liberty in casting your work as beautiful experiments, iterations, attempts, trials, and errors. Take the long view and allow yourself the fun of failure every day.

5. Go deep. The deeper you go the more likely you will discover something of value.

6. Capture accidents. The wrong answer is the right answer in search of a different question. Collect wrong answers as part of the process. Ask different questions.

7. Study. A studio is a place of study. Use the necessity of production as an excuse to study. Everyone will benefit.

8. Drift. Allow yourself to wander aimlessly. Explore adjacencies. Lack judgment. Postpone criticism.

9. Begin anywhere. John Cage tells us that not knowing where to begin is a common form of paralysis. His advice: begin anywhere.

10. Everyone is a leader. Growth happens. Whenever it does, allow it to emerge. Learn to follow when it makes sense. Let anyone lead.

11. Harvest ideas. Edit applications. Ideas need a dynamic, fluid, generous environment to sustain life. Applications, on the other hand, benefit from critical rigor. Produce a high ratio of ideas to applications.

12. Keep moving. The market and its operations have a tendency to reinforce success. Resist it. Allow failure and migration to be part of your practice.

13. Slow down. Desynchronize from standard time frames and surprising opportunities may present themselves.

14. Don’t be cool. Cool is conservative fear dressed in black. Free yourself from limits of this sort.

15. Ask stupid questions. Growth is fueled by desire and innocence. Assess the answer, not the question. Imagine learning throughout your life at the rate of an infant.

16. Collaborate. The space between people working together is filled with conflict, friction, strife, exhilaration, delight, and vast creative potential.

17. ____________________. Intentionally left blank. Allow space for the ideas you haven’t had yet, and for the ideas of others.

18. Stay up late. Strange things happen when you’ve gone too far, been up too long, worked too hard, and you're separated from the rest of the world.

19. Work the metaphor. Every object has the capacity to stand for something other than what is apparent. Work on what it stands for.

20. Be careful to take risks. Time is genetic. Today is the child of yesterday and the parent of tomorrow. The work you produce today will create your future.

21. Repeat yourself. If you like it, do it again. If you don’t like it, do it again.

22. Make your own tools. Hybridize your tools in order to build unique things. Even simple tools that are your own can yield entirely new avenues of exploration. Remember, tools amplify our capacities, so even a small tool can make a big difference.

23. Stand on someone’s shoulders. You can travel farther carried on the accomplishments of those who came before you. And the view is so much better.

24. Avoid software. The problem with software is that everyone has it.

25. Don’t clean your desk. You might find something in the morning that you can’t see tonight.

26. Don’t enter awards competitions. Just don’t. It’s not good for you.

27. Read only left-hand pages. Marshall McLuhan did this. By decreasing the amount of information, we leave room for what he called our "noodle."

28. Make new words. Expand the lexicon. The new conditions demand a new way of thinking. The thinking demands new forms of expression. The expression generates new conditions.

29. Think with your mind. Forget technology. Creativity is not device-dependent.

30. Organization = Liberty. Real innovation in design, or any other field, happens in context. That context is usually some form of cooperatively managed enterprise. Frank Gehry, for instance, is only able to realize Bilbao because his studio can deliver it on budget. The myth of a split between "creatives" and "suits" is what Leonard Cohen calls a 'charming artifact of the past.'

31. Don’t borrow money. Once again, Frank Gehry’s advice. By maintaining financial control, we maintain creative control. It’s not exactly rocket science, but it’s surprising how hard it is to maintain this discipline, and how many have failed.

32. Listen carefully. Every collaborator who enters our orbit brings with him or her a world more strange and complex than any we could ever hope to imagine. By listening to the details and the subtlety of their needs, desires, or ambitions, we fold their world onto our own. Neither party will ever be the same.

33. Take field trips. The bandwidth of the world is greater than that of your TV set, or the Internet, or even a totally immersive, interactive, dynamically rendered, object-oriented, real-time, computer graphic–simulated environment.

34. Make mistakes faster. This isn’t my idea -- I borrowed it. I think it belongs to Andy Grove.

35. Imitate. Don’t be shy about it. Try to get as close as you can. You'll never get all the way, and the separation might be truly remarkable. We have only to look to Richard Hamilton and his version of Marcel Duchamp’s large glass to see how rich, discredited, and underused imitation is as a technique.

36. Scat. When you forget the words, do what Ella did: make up something else ... but not words.

37. Break it, stretch it, bend it, crush it, crack it, fold it.

38. Explore the other edge. Great liberty exists when we avoid trying to run with the technological pack. We can’t find the leading edge because it’s trampled underfoot. Try using old-tech equipment made obsolete by an economic cycle but still rich with potential.

39. Coffee breaks, cab rides, green rooms. Real growth often happens outside of where we intend it to, in the interstitial spaces -- what Dr. Seuss calls "the waiting place." Hans Ulrich Obrist once organized a science and art conference with all of the infrastructure of a conference -- the parties, chats, lunches, airport arrivals — but with no actual conference. Apparently it was hugely successful and spawned many ongoing collaborations.

40. Avoid fields. Jump fences. Disciplinary boundaries and regulatory regimes are attempts to control the wilding of creative life. They are often understandable efforts to order what are manifold, complex, evolutionary processes. Our job is to jump the fences and cross the fields.

41. Laugh. People visiting the studio often comment on how much we laugh. Since I've become aware of this, I use it as a barometer of how comfortably we are expressing ourselves.

42. Remember. Growth is only possible as a product of history. Without memory, innovation is merely novelty. History gives growth a direction. But a memory is never perfect. Every memory is a degraded or composite image of a previous moment or event. That’s what makes us aware of its quality as a past and not a present. It means that every memory is new, a partial construct different from its source, and, as such, a potential for growth itself.

43. Power to the people. Play can only happen when people feel they have control over their lives. We can't be free agents if we’re not free.
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(no subject) [Aug. 29th, 2007|01:07 pm]
Morgan and I talk a lot about how it's acceptable to be fat but it's completely UN-acceptable to smoke.
The other day some old beast made a remark about how disgusting it was that Morgan was smoking in a public area (aka outside the library, wide open space). People do that a lot (to Morgan). Society views smoking as one of the most disgusting things someone could do to their body. SMOKING is a choice, you choose to smoke a ciggarette thus making you addicted. All choice, self induced. Same with every other addiction.
Apparently, it's okay for everyone to be rude and make remarks like "You are so disgusting" and "Thats fucking gross" or "You're gonna die!".
Now, think of this-
An obese female is sitting in a public place, and someone says "Lose some weight" It's condsidered TOTALLY OFFENSIVE. But, it's actually no different then saying "Stop smoking" to a smoker! See what I mean?
The only difference is that we take pity on people that are huge. Because we feel as if it wasn't their fault. But the truth is that IT IS THEIR FAULT. People that over consume are making a choice. They put the food to their mouth. They order the french fries, and the pizza, and the coke. They make un healthy choices, just like smokers.
So it's bullshit that we even feel pity for these people.
I mean, who feels bad for people who are addicted to heroin (well, I hope everyone) but we have to realize again that these people brought it apon themselves, as terrible as it seems.
Fatties, Smokers, Alchoholics, Drug abusers (NOT POT), Necro's,
All make terrible health choices, all equally as terrible. Don't single one group out and ignore the problem. FAT PEOPLE NEED TO LOSE WEIGHT. If you can't put down the double meated cheeseburger then so be it. No one should feel bad for your lazy ass,(TAKE THAT TLC SPECIALS ON OBESITY!)
So next time a fat person tells you to quit smoking, just say "Lose some weight, the gym is open to the public".
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(no subject) [Aug. 28th, 2007|09:23 am]
I love my period
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(no subject) [Aug. 27th, 2007|09:33 am]
Now Max thinks that we should move to Seattle.
and he said "Well, we don't have to come back"
Seattle, possibly the coolest city for music and culture. I LONG FOR YOU.
A lot of traveling is taking place in the next couple months/year
We are going to Las Vegas December 9-13th, and then Chicago to see Eric.
It seems as if everytime Eric moves to another city, Max feels the need to relish in the free lodging. Eric is Max's cousin.

It's been a long time since my patience has stood trial. I'm not ready.
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(no subject) [Aug. 23rd, 2007|09:43 am]
1) List 10 things that you want to say to 10 different people, but never can or will.
2) Don't say who they are.
3) Never discuss it again.
4) No order. Just random.

There have been times that consider you very lame.

2) I am very dissapointed in you. You were my rock, and I thought I shared something with you. Now you are just like the rest of them.

3) I think you are a complete idiot. You are making a stupid choice, and you won't realize it until your shit outta luck. Nothing I say could ever change your mind, though.

4) Thank you for listening to me. You really are my best friend. Oh, and Max needs the rent.

5) Sometimes I can't get enough of you, other times I get to much. I love you though, and I don't want to move away from you.

6) You are the greatest love of my life.

7) You two are my babys. I love you, and I'm sorry that I kick you once in awhile.

8) I would be so happy if you fucking killed yourself.

9) You too, dyke.

10) You pretend to be smarter then you are.
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